This is Crike!

Have you guys ever felt that you just wanted to smash something or someone up so bad that they die?!

Well i have but i don't want to hurt anyone, Just want to smash something up really bad.. And now we talk al-quida bad!!!

I don't have much to say... But i think i've meet someone, Can't place her quite yet if i want to get to learn her more or just stay as friends yet.. The problem for me with her, Is that my Ex-gf is getting in the way.. Not that i still love her or so but it's like i feel bad for talking to her.. Can't explain it good... Anyways she always get's me to laugh or so.. Even when i feel down, Many of my friends have a hard time to get me laugh when i'm down, But she can... Hmm maybe she's a really good friend to stick to, Or it could be love in time, But it's to early for my taste, And i don't people to think bad off me just like "Ohh.. He's jumping to the first and best after this what an idiot!"

Well anyways, Things change, It's just a big craze, Over you and it can't be chased! <--- Don't even ask!!

Well Lisa i don't know if you read this,, But i want you to know that I AM respecting your choices and stuff like that, Never think anything else, But the other day i found something at home, I found the song i write to you when you were in Turkey.. I planned that you would sing some lines, Like a duo or something :P Well the love is blind, But it's sad 2 days ago i put fire on it so it's gone, Wanted you to read it, But i shouldn't have waited for you to read it after the break-up, More like before... Hehe well it's good to be after wise :P

Anyway, I'll always be there for you even if you don't want to, You'll always have a shoulder to put weight on with me!

Even thou you probly hate me and stuff like now and always will, But you will always have a safe place by my side...

Hmmm... I've thought about some stuff lately, Maybe i should move down as my mom did, Get away from sthlm this last 2 months that are left until i'm 18 and then move back or something, Get to know people in Norrköping or so, And i'm seriously considering to stop smoking and go for Mauy Thai as a friend of mine, I need that aggression but a good way to channel it and use it.. I do know that i'm stop confident on my adrenaline, I'm so satisfied with it that i can't use it anymore... I need rechannel it somehow and so that i can use it all time, Somehow why i want it, It's because it's my strength, And upper hand in fight's, If i can get a dose of it all time no one could take me down... ( i think )

There was i time you could say that. BUT NOW YOU CAN'T!

Well i never thought i would be stuck again... Or that nothing could hurt me so bad so i just thought of that as my only way to get happy, Foolish of me... Now im stuck again!

For this i blame you, But more myself.. I put myself in that situation!

Well i am to tired to write much more, This have been a long fucking postal in a long while now, I hope you people have the time to read everything hehe

Well soon it's Friday and i'm going to blow up!! Can't wait!! ;)

Ciao!